Saturday, October 16, 2010

Day #07

#07 My Ex-Boyfriend


Just saw him today on the Train, thats why i've decided to write.

Dear ex-bf(WEIRD),
Saw you today on the train and i did get a shock because you appeared so adruptly. Like once i entered the train, and turn to walk in, i immediately saw you there. And I had to mutter an awkward "Hello!" Dont know if it applied to you, but it did to me. hahaha. It might have felt funny because there are still lingering memories of "us" but not the feelings. But this doesnt affect me now, since its been quite a while since we last saw each other, different schools now or even engage in any form of conversation. Because of studies, because i wasnt clearly know what ive wanted from our relationship previously, its now an ex. Definately, there are some other reasons too, but it'll be just too ... you know, not right to publish and list ALL the reasons out one by one. Also, this might just apply to me and not other girls. And when i said "Because of studies", i just couldnt balance the big exam while carrying on a relationship. I couldnt spend time talking to you, nor even check my phone, but this applied to everyone, really. I know, we agreed on being friends at that point, our last call. But is it that easy to just start talking like nothing's happened? Uh-uh. (Ending adruptly like how you startled me today) HAHA
All the best in life! (:


And another thing, ive really learnt and understood how it felt to be 'unofficial', like not allowing your parents know that youre dating, feels terrible. Guilt starts to build up and it WILL become an issue. So now i know, and its a sooner or later thing that i have to tell my parents about now. Please have courage please have courage! Even though i dont know what to expect.


Love,
CHANELLE

posted by Chanel, Hui Lin @ 2:32 AM

Monday, October 11, 2010

Day #06 ( i lost count, ahhhh)

#06 A stranger

Dont need to research on stranger because its eay to decipher.

Dear stranger,
I really have no idea what to say to you, precisely cos youre a stranger?
Okay, sometimes, bonding with strangers will get you all to become friends, then best of friend, then maybe a couple, or get married. But that only happens to one "stranger", so what happens to the rest of you's? Some of them are kind, more open minded, some are really unreasonable and irritating. Like once, i was near Bugis Junction's coffeeshop and while eating, this old STRANGER ( emphasise on the stranger) uncle came super super close to us, like less than an inch seriously and stared at our food. I mean, yes, youre hungry but its really freaky. You might think that staring at our food so CLOSELY is no big deal. But that made me not want to sit there are eat anymore despite the good Nasi Lemak (: ( drooling at the point of imagining it) haha. Also, i think if youre a woman, it'll be easier for me to talk to but man, nah, uncomfortable.
Friends do become one of you all too, but lets hope that this will never happen, because i intend to let every single one of my friends that entered not leave my life.

So, stranger stranger on the wall, whose the fairest of em' all.

Love, Chanel

posted by Chanel, Hui Lin @ 10:57 AM