Day #07
#07 My Ex-Boyfriend
Just saw him today on the Train, thats why i've decided to write.
Dear ex-bf(WEIRD),
Saw you today on the train and i did get a shock because you appeared so adruptly. Like once i entered the train, and turn to walk in, i immediately saw you there. And I had to mutter an awkward "Hello!" Dont know if it applied to you, but it did to me. hahaha. It might have felt funny because there are still lingering memories of "us" but not the feelings. But this doesnt affect me now, since its been quite a while since we last saw each other, different schools now or even engage in any form of conversation. Because of studies, because i wasnt clearly know what ive wanted from our relationship previously, its now an ex. Definately, there are some other reasons too, but it'll be just too ... you know, not right to publish and list ALL the reasons out one by one. Also, this might just apply to me and not other girls. And when i said "Because of studies", i just couldnt balance the big exam while carrying on a relationship. I couldnt spend time talking to you, nor even check my phone, but this applied to everyone, really. I know, we agreed on being friends at that point, our last call. But is it that easy to just start talking like nothing's happened? Uh-uh. (Ending adruptly like how you startled me today) HAHA
All the best in life! (:
And another thing, ive really learnt and understood how it felt to be 'unofficial', like not allowing your parents know that youre dating, feels terrible. Guilt starts to build up and it WILL become an issue. So now i know, and its a sooner or later thing that i have to tell my parents about now. Please have courage please have courage! Even though i dont know what to expect.
Love,
CHANELLE
posted by Chanel, Hui Lin @ 2:32 AM
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